Self

Some days are better than others. Little things alter my perception each day and sets my mind in motion towards either good or bad thoughts. It's not easy.

Growing up I had it good and bad. Emotional and mental abuse was an everyday thing. Some days more than others. It programed me to think and act differently. I find myself doing things today that I know is not benefitial for my emotional state of mind. My outlook on life isn't as it should be. Counseling helps a bit. I know that I also need to try and change how I feel and think, but it isn't easy. Years of abuse aren't just wiped away with a few thoughts and actions. It takes just as many years to deprogram oneself. I struggle. One day, maybe, I will overcome. We shall see.