Friday, July 25, 2008

The Age of Driving

Getting older is a part of life that is unavoidable.
As you get older you begin to have decreased reflexes, sight, movement. Yes, there are some exceptions to the rule......there always are, but for the most part this happens to everybody.
I have come to the realization that the DOL (Department of Licensing) needs to create a rule for citizens 55 and over that requires them to take a physical driving test every 5 years when they renew their drivers license. Then they can have their reflexes and driving skills monitored so when they do reach a point to where it just isn't safe for them to drive they can have the law behind the decision. Granted, there will be some that don't pass and still get behind the wheel because they feel it is their right.
Driving is a privilege not a right.
I've heard many times an elderly person say that they can't take away their right to drive. Yes they can.....if you are no longer safely capable.
The people who are 55 and older that can still pass the test with little or no problems should actually be proud of themselves and shouldn't be upset with it.
I have witnessed many elderly persons get out of their cars and can't walk without heavily leaning on their cane/walker, elderly persons who have palsied movements like shaking of the head or whole body, and even elderly persons who have such thick glasses that while in the store they have to put a product an inch from their face just to read it. I don't know if it's just me, but I wouldn't trust their driving after witnessing these things.
So, taking a test and passing is something to be happy about. Getting older is inevitable. Be responsible about it. The world would be a little bit better (and safer) for it.

SHUT-UP and drive!!!

Going down the road at any given time I can count at least 10 different drivers talking on their cell phones......while driving.....

A few times I have almost gotten into an accident with a driver not paying attention switching lanes. They never turned their heads to look either in their mirrors or to the lane they were getting into.
Granted, I do know of situations that a cell phone would come in handy. Reporting law breakers, and emergencies. That's it. Other than that it is all frivolous!! A call is not SO important that you have to take away your attention from driving to answer the damn thing!!!! Is your life or others' not important enough to you?
I have even witnessed a woman come out of the Police Station, get into her car in front of the building and it's wall of windows, get her cell phone out and dial while lighting a cigarette with her other hand, then start the car and shifting her STICK SHIFT into drive before pulling out into traffic without looking, steering with her knees. *sighs*
I can't wait till a law is passed where it is illegal to be on a cell phone while driving. So far, you have to be pulled over for something else to be charged. The bluetooth earpieces are a bit better because your hands are mostly on the wheel, but your attention is still occupied with the conversation. Have you ever tried to have a conversation without paying attention to the other person when you can't see them? It's not easy. So how can you expect to drive while talking to someone on the phone.

This is just a really big subject that pisses me off. You're probably saying, "Other things while driving can be just as bad if you think that way.!" I agree!

Putting on makeup
Dressing
Doing your hair
Fighting with your undisciplined kids in the backseat
Eating
Changing CDs/messing with Radio

Keep your damn eyes on the road and your friggin hands on the wheel!!!! How hard is that?!?!?!

*sighs* I need to stop this post before I blow a major vessel. This is how I feel, and if you don't like it, tough sh*t.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Confliction

I seem to be pulled in two different directions........

For quite a few years I have been having thoughts of being with other women besides my relationship with my husband.

I have always had these thoughts and feelings, but in different degrees, always fluctuating. Being raised as a Christian goes against these things. I'm conflicted. It almost becomes painful when my two sides battle one another. I have only had two experiences with women in the past. I enjoyed it, but only to a certain degree. The way I look and feel about myself kept getting in the way. I don't feel desireable to anyone. That would certainly put a damper on things, huh. I would like to explore more of my other side, but I have to become more comfortable with myself. Boy, is that sure a work in progress!

Am I feeling these emotions and attractions because I am not getting the full attention that I need in my marriage? Is it because women are more in tune with other women? Is this because of what I experienced as a child growing up from my father's mental and emotional abuse? And therein lies the conflict. I may never find the missing pieces of my life. I want to be whole.......fixed.......complete. Until then, I will exist.

Self

Some days are better than others. Little things alter my perception each day and sets my mind in motion towards either good or bad thoughts. It's not easy.

Growing up I had it good and bad. Emotional and mental abuse was an everyday thing. Some days more than others. It programed me to think and act differently. I find myself doing things today that I know is not benefitial for my emotional state of mind. My outlook on life isn't as it should be. Counseling helps a bit. I know that I also need to try and change how I feel and think, but it isn't easy. Years of abuse aren't just wiped away with a few thoughts and actions. It takes just as many years to deprogram oneself. I struggle. One day, maybe, I will overcome. We shall see.